They're Marvel's. No money. Don't sue.

This is an utterly directionless story that came to me when I was trying to write a certain K&L&K&P&B story (at least one person out there knows what that is ;), and it just wouldn't leave me alone, and it kept me up 'til six o' clock in the bloody morning... <sigh>

Anyways, all obligatory threats given, comments to skaya@mindspring.com, yada yada yada... (So it's not my most original intro. Sue me! I'm tired!)

And this is for Luba, even if she doesn't like it. ;) Hey, it's the thought that counts!

Enjoy. ;-)


The Words You Said

by Kaylee


You said you loved me.

That's what he'd said to her. Words that made an accusation no matter how hard he tried to tell himself it was nothing but a statement of fact.

You said you loved me.

He might as well have just painted a fuckin' billboard that shouted, "LIAR!" That's what he'd meant. She knew it, too. Never at any point had he been able to say that she was a slow study.

You said you loved me.

How had she done that? How could she? He'd actually believed that she was too innocent for those games, for those cruel little teasers that other women he'd known had tossed out like scraps to hungry dogs. Too forthright. Too honest. Too... her.

You said you loved me.

And he... Mr. Eloquence, that was his bloody name, wasn't it? Mr. Say-the-Right-Thing-at-the-Right-Fuckin'-Time. Oh yeah, he could be proud of that. He could be proud of telling her something she already knew, something she was too goddamn confused to explain away, something that was meant only to hurt, to strike out, to make her feel the pain he was feeling at what felt like the deepest betrayal...

You said you loved me.

Liar.

You said you needed me.

Bitch.

You said you'd never felt this way about anyone before... not even that dimwit Terminator knockoff that everyone was so bloody quick t' defend... not yer little school-time boyfriend wot ate that bullet those few years ago...

Fuckin'...

You said I made you feel pretty. You said you felt like a supermodel when I looked at you, when I touched you...

You...

You LIED.

Pryde...

And I was a bloody stupid git fer believin' you.

I'm sorry...

Stupid t' think I could be somethin' I'm not... stupid t' believe it when you told me I belonged...

I didn't mean it.

I take it all back, Pryde. Didn't mean a bloody word. Don't give a damn about you or yer team or that fuckin' 'Dream' you mindless plonkers follow...

It's not yer fault.

'What needs to be done.' Yeah, I did what needed t' be friggin' done. I left yer whining little arse standing on that soddin' island, and I hope you rot there, I hope yer miserable there, I hope you spend every goddamn day wondering how the bloody hell you fucked it all up so bad...

I miss you.

And next time we see each other -- this lifetime'd be too soon -- I'll show you just how much I care about the months I wasted with you.

They were everything.

I don't need this shit.

I need you.

I've got better things to do.

I'd rather do them with you.

And you can just... just kiss my bleedin' arse, that's what you can do. Kiss my arse and try t' remember what it was like when I gave a shit about you.

If I could just talk to you again...

I hope yer cryin', Pryde. I hope yer miserable. I hope yer... yer...

Thinkin' o' me.

Gettin' drunk as hell.

Remember that time you tried t' match me drink fer drink? Yer so competitive... god, I love that about you...

Listenin' t' those warbling Yanks while they babble out that disgusting country music, that's the torture I hope yer sittin' through right now...

We never even picked out our own song.

I'll bet Wagner's havin' a blast with this. And MacTaggert... HAH! She must love it. Ol' Peter Wisdom, finally off her bloody island, not stinkin' up her medlab anymore with his disgustin' fags...

I caught her smokin', once. She was sittin' out back, all bundled up against the cold. I didn't know she was there, or I would've right gone some other fuckin' place. Her hands were shaking... bad day fer Legacy, I guess... and I could tell she'd been cryin'. I sat down and had a smoke with her. We didn't say a word, neither of us. Just sat there and smoked like some old dodgers sittin' on a porch at an old folks' home. That's when I realized that she'd given up on finding a cure fer herself, and she was ready t' let the bloody Reaper come drag her off.

Make the world a better place fer that harridan t' meet her maker.

She threw the fag away and stood up like she was goin' t' leave. I told her to sit her overworked arse down and enjoy the friggin' 'beautiful' Scottish weather. She said no thanks, she had work t' do. I told her she was lyin'... she weren't goin' t' do no work, and she bloody well knew it. She gave me this look... this look like she was a thousand bloody years old an' she knew a million things I'd never figure out. She said she weren't stupid, an' she'd quit when god snatched her off o' this earth. An' then she told me...

Don't know why I'd ever listen t' the old bag...

... she told me that she wasn't thinkin' about death at all, an' that she was thinkin' about that bloody Irishman she's so hot fer. The one with the wail like a dyin' foghorn. An' she said she was missin' him, an' that pride kept her from callin' an' tellin' the bastard that.

Ain't surprised that woman gets all choked up with pride. She's got that bleedin' mouth on her, y'know. Never stops bitchin'. Like a fuckin' mother, that's what she is. Talks an' talks an' talks 'til you do whatever the bloody hell she's tellin' you t' do just t' shut her up.

My mother was a talker.

I told her that if she was missin' the bloke so bad, she needed t' shag her ego an' call him. But did she listen t' me? O' course not. No one thinks 'that plonker Wisdom' has a whit o' sense. An' look at her now... miserable. Shuttin' herself in a lab all day an' thinkin' that's the answer. Lockin' herself away from everyone who gives a shit 'cause she can't handle all the bloody baggage that goes with carin'. An' this woman's supposed t' be one of the fuckin' 'minds' o' the planet?

How do you stand bein' alone again after all that time with people you gave a shit about, MacTaggert? How do you stand it?

Stupid. Stubborn. Brick-headed fool.

I am.

Arrogant as hell, y'know. Cowardly, too.

Now that's a bitter thing t' admit.

Doesn't do this one little simple thing that might give life a little more meanin'.

Fuck it, Pryde, I don't want t' hear you say, 'no.'

Deserves whatever happens, that's fer sure.

You gave me grounding, Pryde. You gave me a chance t' play it straight.

Not worth a second look.

Not worth a second chance.

Just forget about it.

I can't forget about you, you stupid git.

Don't reach for the phone. Don't dial that number. Don't listen t' the fuckin' rings an' fight t' keep from hangin' up.

I'm not goin' t' try.

I'm not goin' t' let go.

I hate you.

You're the only one that ever made me feel like I was worth somethin'.

You said you loved me.

Did you love me?

You said you needed me.

I needed you.

You said... I said...

RRRRRRIIIIIINNNNNGGGGG!

Don't answer the phone.

RRRRRRIIIIIINNNNNGGGGG!

Answer the bloody phone.

RRRRRRIIIIIINNNNNGGGGG!

Next ring, I swear I'm hangin' up...

RRRRRRIIIIIINNNNNGGGGG!

... Ring after this one, I swear t' bloody hell I'm hangin' up...

RRRRRRIIIIIINNN--

"Muir Island Research Center."

...

"Hello?"

...

"Is anyone there?"

...

"Who's on the phone, Piotr?"

"There is no answer, Katya. Perhaps it is a wrong number."

"Or another crank call. Hang up."

"Da."

CLICK.

...

I'm not callin' you tomorrow, Pryde. An' I'm not callin' you the day after that, or the day after that, or the bloody day after that, neither.

... I'm not.

Really.

A man's got t' hold onto his pride, right?

His Pryde.

He's got t'...

...

RRRRRRIIIIIINNNNNGGGGG!

"Muir Island. Hello?"

"Listen up, you bloody half-arsed tin-plated rust-coated wanker! Yer goin' t' put Pryde on the phone, an' yer goin' t' do it right this bleedin' second!"

"..."

"I said now, you brainless--"

"Pete."

"... Pryde. ... Hi."

"I'm... glad you called."

"Yeah. Well." She ain't hangin' up, she's talkin' t' me, tell her how you feel you fuckin' git-- "I, uh, had some time t' kill an' thought that I'd just..."

"I meant it, Pete."

"Meant... what?"

"When I said that... that I loved you."

"..."

"Pete...?"

"..."

"Please don't hang up."

"..."

"Pete..."

"If I don't hang up how'm I goin' t' call the airport an' get a plane ticket?" Smooth... good goin'...

"You're coming back?"

Ohyesohyesohyesohyes "Got nothin' better t' do..."

"... I'm glad to hear that."

"Well. See..." YES! "I'm kind o' glad t' say it."

"I've been worried about you."

"No need t' worry about me, Pryde. I c'n keep my head above water."

"How soon can you be here?"

"Sooner I hang up, sooner I can get a flight."

"Then I'll let you go for now."

"Yeah."

"... I love you, Pete."

"... Yeah."

"... See you soon."

CLICK.

...

I knew she loved me. You can always tell with birds. No good at hidin' their feelings. Read 'em like a bloody book.

Yeah.

Not like a bloke.

...

RRRRRRIIIIIINNNNNGGGGG!

RRRRRRIIIIIINNNNNGG--

"Pete?"

"I love you too, Pryde."

--end--


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